As I read over my entries, I realize I write a lot about MY life, rather than our (Josh and my) life together. Which, I think that is okay. I mean, I am still an individual dealing with my own personal struggles and I think this is a place where I kind of mentally deal with those things. But, after rereading my Vegan Parenting entry, I realized I did a lot of talking about my kids and what I will teach them. I think I did this mostly because Josh isn't on the same path as I am in terms of being strict about boycotting factory farming and that was the specific issue at hand in the blog. He does it where he can, but he still eats what he wants and that is totally fine by me. I think he probably thinks I over do it a bit, but also supports me in what I need to do. But, I wanted to clarify, there will definitely be a partnership as WE raise OUR kids. And, honestly, IF we ever do have children, I can't wait to help him raise our kid(s).
On another note: They say the first year of marriage can be tough. Even tougher when your dealing with depression I would guess. I commend my husband for putting up with my woah is me attitude. Especially because he is such a social butterfly. It isn't fair to him that I continue to wallow in my own self pity. I think I am finally making some good changes in my daily life that will ultimately change my brain chemistry! Honestly, over the last couple of days I have felt less reactionary and anxiety driven, and dare I say, happier?! I'm still waiting to see if it holds or if I've just been lucky:) I've been working out everyday in hopes to naturally boost my endorphines, as well as taking the St. John's Wort. I really hope it works as I don't want to have to deal with the potential side affects of meds, although, if needed I will make use of them. So, there ya have it. More about me than you probably wanted to know. Have a blessed day!
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